My new favourite song

If you want it, you can have it
But you’ve got to learn to reach out there and grab it

‘Cause everybody wants some love
Shooting from the stars above
And though my heart will break
There’s more that I could take
I could never get enough

If you need it, you should show it
‘Cause you might play so monastic that you blow it

‘Cause everybody wants some hope
Something they can barely know
And though my heart will break
There’s more that I could take
I could never let it go

It’s in the photograph
It’s in the photograph
It’s in the photograph of love

‘Cause everybody wants a dream
Something they can barely see
And though my heart will break
There’s more that I could take
I could never let it be

It’s in the photograph
It’s in the photograph
It’s in the photograph of love

If you blew it, don’t reject it
Just sit drawing up the plans and re-erect it
Just sit drawing up the plans and re-erect it
Just sit drawing up the plans and re-erect it

Photograph by Weezer!

Posted: November 10th, 2009 under Life, Love - No Comments.

Life project

Lately, I have more time to think, being alone most of the tim. Some say it wouldn’t be a bad thing but for me, it’s not really a good thing. I started thinking up all sorts of new project I want to do, the problem is I may start alot of them and never finish… that’s my problem. But for your entertainment, here’s a list of the projects I have in mind in no particular order.

• Write a book
• Go back to school
• Buy a Mini Laptop
• Buy a dishwasher
• Do my college maths
• Create a webzine
• Buy a place, condo, house
• Learn Ajax & ActionScript 3 & ASP.NET
• Go to London

Posted: October 28th, 2009 under Uncategorized - No Comments.

Moving on…

So the part after the breakup, when you’re not the one doing it, is acceptance. I think I pretty much accepted the fact that I got rejected. So now, I’m at the “moving on” part. After my other relationship ended I’d send that phase on dating website and dating and finding someone new. I though it was a good way to move on. But I realised I was only pushing the problem down and going at it the same way with someone else. Conclusion: not a good way to move on. This time, I don’t want to date, I don’t even feel ready anyway. So I’ll take that time to actually work on myself. Or at least try… It’s not easy to concentrate on myself. I’m really not used to it. I’m all for making times for my friends, but for me? Pretty rarely… I don’t really know how to take care of myself to be honest and I’m a little lost as to where I should start… So I decided I would workout 3 times a week and that I would eat better. So far it’s going ok for that. But I believe there’s alot of work to do to change my personnality, To be better. I’m not sure what I want to be yet, who I want to be… I want to be able to stand for myself that’s for sure but then again, I get so worked up every argument I get it, it’s crazy. Well something I need to work on I suppose… I’m just not sure again how to go at it. I also need to be a little more sociable. All of my friends and family live a bit far away so I feel kind of left alone, but instead of going out alone, meeting new people, I just stay alone and mope all weekends. It’s getting pretty depressing actually… I know it won’t change until I do something about it, but it’s hard to get out of the.. self-pitying loop.

In short, I’m at the “moving on” part but I can’t quite do it yet! Help me! :p

Posted: October 1st, 2009 under Life, Love - 1 Comment.

Hurt

So, everything was going well with my boyfriend or so I thought. He broke up with me yesterday and well.. I’m back to square one.. I feel like I’ve dropped so far down.  It kind of came out of nowhere for me, that’s why it hurts even more.  It’s hard but.. I think I’m going to be ok eventually… So New appartment, checked, new boyfriend, on hold.. I think I’m going to work more on myself for the time being. And as for the new job, well I asked for a big raise yesterday and we’ll see where it’ll take me..

Posted: September 15th, 2009 under Life, Love - 1 Comment.